The decision that I will compete in bikini fitness competition was made in Januay this year. As I remember I started proper diet in Feb. In May I step up on stage for the first time. In total I been on stage already 3 times. Once I been 2nd - that was my goal to get to top 3 , 2 other times unfortunately the lvl of competition been to high for my lvl of experience, stage presence and physique - but I knew it, it was rather taken as a stage experience and I take part in it "by the way" and it wasn't my goal.
Been analysing how I look now, looking through winners from other qualifiers and I realised and get to point that even if I will get shape like on Scottish Championships, I'd rather don't have any chance to get a top place at British Finals. My overall physique isn't strong enough. My glutes need a lot of improvement. It was my dream to step up on that stage since I decided to do it and then got an invite. But sometimes we need to resignate from something, to get more after . Another thing is that I got really tough situation with money this month, so don't even know if I would be able to afford a trip to Nottingham. So don't want to prepare for something if I even won't be able to go. Tricky one . Anyway it doesn't mean that I'm giving up and resignating from competing... No no no. This is my first year or actually few months in comps environment and in this 8 months I really achieved a lot and I'm proud of myself! . My body changed. I can clearly see it . I'm stepping to off season full of motivation. I just don't want anybody think that I am making some excuses... I wanted it so much but I also want to grow! And it is more important right now because if I won't grow I never win. "Operation GLUTES " starting soon. Just need to sort my diet and training plan for a new goal. Maybe I beat my PB's?
Hard work is just about to start
Patience⌛️ and Me vs Me
